Right now, I want to sleep. I want to eat. I want to buy things. I want to read books. I want to leave, to drop my commitments and go see something. At least for a while. None of these are productive, none accomplishing anything meaningful or lasting.
There are things I could do, things I know I should do. Fire pit, pruning, cleaning, shelving, insulating, painting. But I also feel that this is my weekend, my time to do as I please, to relax, do something fun, interesting, or worthwhile. The problem is that will never get any of those to-do's off the list, and weekend after weekend I will spend my time thinking about how I want to spend my time, rather than clearing that list and truly preparing for what I want to do. Of course, a number of things are recurring to-do's, so they will always come back. Can I make them smaller each time? Or alter my lifestyle or environment to remove recurring needs for good? I have to start if I am to go.
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